What is love?

When asked to write a piece about love I felt discriminated against,

bar my unconditional love for the two labradors sitting at the end of

my bed; I have never fallen in love, not once. As I told the polish

receptionist at work today he mocked me and wouldn't believe it, as

when he was twenty one he had been in several long term relationships.

My lack of relationships may be the key to my lack of love.

I generally believe in love, however I think love easily turns into

obsession and habit; when reflecting on relationships of people I know

I don't get one bit jealous of more than half (and I'm one of the most

jealous people I know, my eyes would be green if it weren't for their

natural grey colour), I could actually only name two of which I would

wish to have; and all of the others cause more hassel, stress and pain

than love. It's like the first time you floss after you've brushed

your teeth; you realise nothing good came out but at least you've

learnt something, then again it can make your gums bleed. Which brings

me another question: is it better to have loved and lost rather than

never loved at all?

I recently read an article about why the key to happiness is seen in a

loving relationship. It didn't help me much in figuring out what love

is but it made me realise I might want to feel it so much so I can

empathise with just about every song, book, film, or poem ever

written. Or the plain fact that stupid, ugly people who piss me off

are loved by someone! However my mother would be the first person to

tell me that life just isn't fair.

Unfortunately I can't blame Disney for all my misconceptions and high

standards of love; as I'm not a fan of conventionally beautiful, I

generally like dirty hair, tired eyes, crusty lips, scarred fingers

and thick eyebrows. I will blame them though for the happy ending

myth; the other day it came to me like an epiphany that I'm not

guranteed a happy ending, I'm not even guranteed to be happy. So when

asking my magic eight ball if I will die alone, I got an answer I knew

was coming "outlook is good".